That’s enough of that!

Have you ever felt tied to something? Felt as though you were trapped to something or chained to something and yet it got to a point where you didn’t want it anymore? Not an addiction to something, but just something you did for a length of time that you wanted to stop, maybe a habit?

This was the case for me with sleeping medication.  A few years ago I began taking it in order to sleep.  I would be dead tired yet when I laid down to go to sleep I just couldn’t let go….I would find myself laying wide awake in bed for hours with no explanation as to why.  I was convinced that I needed some sort of sleep aid.  I had tried everything, cut coffee out after noon, no computer or phone in bed, and yet still saw no results.  I went to the doctor and they prescribed me a medication for a sleep aid.  I began taking it and it worked, for a little while, but then it wasn’t enough.  I needed more, so I would use benadryl in order to fall asleep with the medication.  When I started my journey I was still on the medication.  I found it hard to wake up and get going for early training sessions though.  As the time passed I would wake up still in this fog for an hour or longer.  I decided that I didn’t want this feeling anymore.  One night my prescription was out and I had forgot to call it in, I had no other choice, I needed to attempt to fall asleep without it.  I was nervous, I was scared, I had not done this for quite some time.  I surprisingly laid down and went right to sleep.  Since that night my script has not been filled since September 3, 2013.  Some nights are better than others, but I still believe I have beat this.  I knew that I did not want to wake up in a fog anymore and be a zombie so I put my mind to something and said I don’t need this anymore!  It is a small victory but it is powerful nonetheless.  I knew it was something I didn’t want anymore and I made it happen.

With this small victory I find myself reflecting on where I was at this time last year.  I was still in the early stages of my journey.  I had just started running, I didn’t know what I wanted to accomplish, I just knew I didn’t want to remain the same anymore.  As I think about my goals for this season, I know that they are very attainable for me.  I am training harder and smarter this year than I was last year and I am 80lbs lighter than I was at that time.  I am researching things, an more knowledgable than I was at this time last year.  I am getting very excited to compete this season even with all the talk of snow looming around tonight.

Here are a few current pictures of my progress, please excuse the bed head!

Through this blog and posts on Instagram and Facebook I have had people contact me for various reasons.  I am asking you for some help now…I have picked up a few adult swim clients at the club.  Two of which had expressed last week that they want to learn how to swim properly in order to lose weight.  I was thrilled!  I was in their shoes at this time last year and this is an opportunity that I have been searching for and yet it has fallen right into my lap.  I am really enjoying helping these people reach their goals and be successful not only in swimming but in also losing weight.  I couldn’t help but ask myself should I share the link to this blog with them?  I have probably said it before but I will say it again, people have told me how incredibly inspiring my story is and how they find motivation in it everyday.  I do not see this, I just see it as I am chasing a dream, I always wanted to compete in triathlons but I always had an excuse as to why I couldn’t.  So my question to all of you is should I share this site with them? Should I give them the link, should I just give them my story? How should I approach this?  Anyone who has found this site or any of my social networking profiles has done it on their own.  I have never given it out for the most part.  I am unsure on how to approach this but I do think they could benefit from it in some way, I am just not sure how to approach the situation.  Any help or advice that you may be able to offer would be greatly appreciated!

As for now, it’s been a long day so I am off to bed.  More triathlon training is on tap for tomorrow!  Thanks for all the support and most importantly thanks for reading!

All for now,
Keep FSU and Do It For Yourself

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